Letting go. What a concept. I'm not so good at this. I'm a very nostalgic person so it's really hard for me to get rid of things, let alone people. The good, the bad, the ugly, the mean...I keep it all because I'm scared of what it means to let it go.
When I was in elementary school I needed crayons and my dad went out and bought me a pack of these Pokemon RoseArt crayons. I doubt he remembers this. But I thought it was so cool. And I left them in the car one day and they melted. I cried that they melted because my dad had gone out and bought them specifically for me. Even writing about it now makes me sad, I'm that sentimental.
I have movie tickets from middle school. I have more memory boxes than any normal person needs. I have stuffed animals and I still love them, as my darling roommate/best friend so sweetly pointed out the other day when I was squealing over a stuffed duck at Target. I'm a sucker, what can I say. I have notebooks from high school, hell I have a folder from middle school full of papers. I'm not too keen on the concept of "gone forever." I know you're thinking that I'm well on my way to becoming a crazy cat lady hoarder, but for right now that's not where this post is going.
My point is people. It's so hard for me to let go of things, imagine how hard it is for me to let go of people. I don't like to forget. I like to think that I have a ridiculously good memory for a reason. The friends I've had throughout my life, I've hated losing all of the ones I've lost so far. I couldn't imagine losing the ones I have now. That's just friends. So far in my life I've never lost a family member and I don't know if I'll ever be ready to face something like that. But sometimes we need to let go regardless of what we think it'll do to us.
Some people are just bad for us. They have negative effects on us and become more of a drug than a shoulder to lean on. I think the people that are right for you in your life are our own personal antibiotics. They save us, make us feel better, etc., but we don't always need them. Even when we don't, though, we can still get them. There might even be some extra laying around somewhere from the last time. The right people will pick you up and push your forward, not hold you in the same place with them forever. That's not the point. Moving forward and forging a path is the point. Bring the right ones with you and let the bad ones go, no matter the cost. The reward will be greater.
I'll let go with you.
xx
Gina
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