I love my friends. It might seem like I say that a lot but I really honestly do. We've all come so far from who we were when we first met whether it was someone's backyard, high school, or work. And because I love them so much and we're all in such different phases of our lives not only with work or school but with relationships, too. I just want to throw a little bit of encouragement and sheer admiration to each of my friends real quick because you all teach me more about myself just being you than I could ever teach myself.
You've probably come the furthest and are the single-most inspirational. You take on the world and while I know what it feels like to say no and feel like you're giving up I really need you to put yourself first. You're beautiful, witty, and absolutely everyone loves you from the moment they meet you. I need you to see that. I said this the other night and I mean it; you're going to be afraid until you learn to trust yourself AND those you surround yourself with. Letting go is part of that process. Having control might be the only way you know how to do things; which trust me I understand; but sometimes it's the worst thing for us. You have so much to offer and will always kick ass at whatever you do but to be loved you have to love yourself first. So I will continue to love you until you see that, and then forever after.
No one has been there for me like you have. Any negative thought I have goes straight to you for immediate analyzing. You have this knack for taking whatever issue I think I'm facing and just...making it better. You just get all of who I am and are the constant reminder of who I want to be. It's funny because I'm at a loss for words about you because I think I've said all of this to you over and over and I, of all people, am running out of amazing things to say about you. From crying with me in my driveway 8 years ago to opening up my horizons to all this world can offer. I love you.
It gets better, I promise. If you read this, refer to my post from December 12th. Read that and live it. It helped me so much, and I wrote that before I even knew I needed it. But you're crazy strong, too. You have grown into this unafraid, willing to try anything once girl I honestly never thought I would see you become and I love it. It's inspiring. In high school I think we were both just as...comfortable with being who we were at the time that's why we got along so well. There was no judgement, just understanding. And I think we're in that same place now. We're turning into like real world adults versus the bitches we used to be sitting in my car in the junior lot judging every single person that walked by my car. I love that you've opened your heart and some many more things make sense now. I get it. And if you need it, I'm always here. I love you and I may not say that enough or talk to you enough, but hopefully you know that.
Another strong one. Don't take it personally that yours may not be as long as others but I feel like you've just got it kind of figured out right now. You know what you want, what you don't, what you don't want to mess with, and who not to associate with. You weren't always that way. But now you make better decisions than I do and I love it. The more lost I get the more you seem to find yourself and it's really inspiring to see you every day and kind of push me in the right direction. Again, you might not even notice it but everything you do shapes a lot of the decisions I make. It could be because I don't want to disappoint you, but it doesn't matter the reason. It's funny how you don't realize how much you need someone every day, even if it's just for a minute, until you have them every day.
And lastly, my beautiful little mess. It's in my nature to try and fix people and things but with you I know there is no "fixing". With you I just listen because as much as I tell you what I think I always know you won't act on what I say. I will just continue to ask you questions to help you see maybe the root of what's really going on. But I love you regardless. You are hands down my craziest friend and I love being crazy with you. Honestly, if it weren't for you there are a thousand things I never would have done. So thank you. We probably had the most inappropriate manager-employee relationship in the history of retail but I thought it was pretty awesome. And I love that I'm still in your phone as Gina Weena. Some things never change <3 p="">
For those that get me through, this is for you. Just a little love to start March off right.
xx
Gina
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