Nobody Likes You When You're 23

Hi.

Did you know that people are crazy? Like all of them. Girls, boys, men, women, old, young, ALL OF THEM. I can tell you this is fact because I have a lot of different sources of information. Like...a lot.

First of all I work at the Ritz. So it's a lot of fun, I love it, but the people here are absolutely out of their minds. I promise I'm not exaggerating. Money makes people crazy. And the older they get and the more money they get, the crazier they get. Like my job is to seat you at a table for dinner and sometimes I get home at night emotionally drained from these people. They suck out your soul and don't give it back. Over a table. For dinner. CRAZY. I have gotten a lot better at dealing with it, I smile a lot more than I used to and most of the time I just brush it off. I'm writing about this because tonight this one lady is super crazy and when I showed her her own crazy in the mirror I think it scared her so much she freaked out on me. Like, woops...but you're crazy ma'am.

Girls and boys my age are crazy, too. And I don't think I'm crazy enough to handle it. I would consider myself pretty normal with a couple of crazy girl tendencies. But I look around at my "peers" and the lives they lead and the choices they make seem so weird to me. I know all of us are different but I find some of what people put up with in relationships or feel like sharing on social media to be mind blowing. I think some things are better kept to ourselves...and that's coming from me. I will sit here and write all about my life and all of the different aspects of it but trust me, I still have some secrets.

I think the last time I wrote it was about being 23 and acting 23 and I think I'm already over it. I just feel so beyond all of this. Most days I run around like a chicken without a head because I tend to juggle like a zillion things at once and I love it. But that leaves roughly zero time for anything else. I fit in what I want to and don't feel bad about saying no to the things that I really just don't want to do. And sometimes I feel like I forget about people or people need me and I'm not there so let this also serve as an apology to everyone I care about for being so crazy and not seeing you or not being so readily available. That's kind of my thing and I'm really sucking at it right now...so don't hate me. Trust me I still love you.

Love always,

Kinda-crazy-Gina