Well it's 2014. Nothing really feels different from 2013. I usually think everything is going to change with the coming of a new year but it never does and I think this year I finally realized it. I also don't have any resolutions. I don't want to change anything. If I change something I'm making a decision in the moment about what I want then and it might not be what I want by the middle of the year. So there. No resolutions. I make my big decisions on any given day, I don't need to make them on the first of the year.
I don't think I even have any goals for this year really. Just do my own thing, I guess. I don't want to be the same person every day and I hardly ever am. I would be so bored if I woke up and felt the same exact way every single day and just started going through the motions. I don't want to settle, but I certainly don't want to be mundane. I like just getting up and going at a moments notice. What am I doing tonight? I don't know, I'll figure out it tonight. I'm a planner and so for me this is different. I'm getting used to just doing and being.
School starts on Monday and for that I'm thankful. School might be the only thing that keeps me feeling 22 besides the fact I can't keep my room clean and that I do 9 loads of laundry in one day instead of doing it every week. Not that those things will change when I "grow up" but here's to wishful thinking. But school keeps me busy. Keeps my brain working and focused and is pointing me towards my ultimate goal of doing what I want to do. I'm such an advocate of school it's annoying.
A friend of mine is in town for the holidays and she has two boys that I was babysitting one night so her and her husband could go out. We were talking about school and one of the boys was being a typical kid and asking me a million questions about what it's like to be 22. Now maybe I'm not the right 22 year-old to ask but I told him it was fun and actually a lot harder than it looks. It's about working and going to school, most often at the same time. Then he asked me why, why do I go to college if I work? And the only thing I could say was because I liked school. I love college. Maybe I'm not all "rah rah FGCU" but I like going to class and learning and finding out new things about myself. That's what college is. I told him that I opened all of these doors that I wouldn't have been able to if I hadn't gone to college. He said he never thought about it that way. And he's 10 so I kind of get it, but that also kind of concerns me. 10 year-olds don't have college in their plans? I don't know if it was just me and a select group of others I know this is true for, but I always knew I was going to college. That's why I went to school growing up, to go to college someday. But hey, I'm probably the weird one it wouldn't surprise me.
Nothing is new or different or forcing me to write today. Which is good and bad. Bad because I'm not inspired but good because today is just another day. I'm at work, it's a Thursday, and I'm just chillin. No ups, no downs, just here. It's a pretty sweet place to be.
xx
Gina
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