Nothing Too Ambitious

So I'm not spontaneous. And I'm too vocal about my crazy. I get it, we're all crazy, but I think some people are afraid of their crazy and I'm so in your face with mine because I want to show you that everyone is crazy. I want you to relate to my crazy and maybe feel a little better about it. I want to motivate and encourage and support anyone who just needs that one message that gets them through today and into tomorrow.

I read a lot and I really enjoy it and I think it's for that reason above. I'm looking for affirmation. I like knowing that someone has felt this way before and that they were, or are, just as confused as I am. And since I like that affirmation so much, I want to give it to others. So I might come off as crazy or that I've completely lost it, but I'm just being honest.

The truth scares most people. Admitting that you're wrong, for instance. I HATE that. I don't like being wrong at all. But I've learned how to just admit it....sometimes. Admitting you love someone. This one baffles me. Apparently this is scary because you're admitting to giving a part of yourself, or maybe even all of yourself, to someone else to hold on to. I guess that's scarier but isn't never feeling an emotion like love scarier? Like going through life alone might be something you're used to but that doesn't mean the alternative isn't way better. Obviously don't fall for the first person that jumps out at you, but if you feel something just run with it. Being alone for the rest of your life is scarier.

I tell things like they are. Yeah, maybe I'm wrong every once in a while but who gives a shit. I'd rather say what's on my mind than keep it bottled up and explode on everyone else.

On a happier note, I'm 147 page views away from having 5,000 blog views. So thank you. I'm incredibly humbled by that whether you read this to laugh at me or you read this to get something out of it. You might think it's weird that I'll sit here and write down what I'm thinking or feeling and be so "heart-on-my-sleeve" about my life but so be it. I'm weird. We're all weird. I'm just better at admitting it. But seriously, thanks for the love. Here's to 10,000.

xx
Gina