She's Got a Gypsy Soul to Blame and She Was Born for Leaving

So more and more I will look at my page views just to see whats going on and on days when I don't post anything, there are still page views. (My own don't count, don't worry) But I think that's pretty cool. I usually only write when I have something to say, I don't want to cloud the internet with garbage anymore than it already is, but I figured today is as good of a day as any to say whatever it is I'm thinking about.

I have to be up at like 3:30 tomorrow morning to take my giiiirl to the airport so she can go to North Carolina for the weekend. Then I decided to just go to work right after so I'm doing that at a not-so-bright and early 5am. Then I'll work very poorly until 1, when I get to leave myself for the airport.

I guess it was like two weeks ago, I was talking to my favorite little lady in New York about coming to see her, but she was busy so we made a plan for this weekend. So now, I'm going to New York tomorrow. And if I'm being honest, I CAN'T FUCKING WAIT. I haven't needed to get this far away from everything in a really long time. And nothing is even particularly bad right now. Like I don't think I'm mad at anyone, or I'm hurting because of anyone...nothing. I'm just so sick of the same thing every single day that I need the spice of my city to wake me up a little. Inspire me, I guess.

It's strange because I do get inspired here, don't get me wrong. I'll be driving home from work with the windows down listening to whatever my mood dictates that day and I'll just be happy. It's such a stark difference from where I was almost 4 years ago when I would get in my car and drive around. All I saw were negatives and the bad things now I can't seem to find them anywhere. But nothing compares to the lights and the sounds and the people and the culture. If I had one word for it, it would be magical. I wasted it when I lived there. I was blind to the magic. Even when I would visit the couple times after I was still blind to it, numb even.

I think now I'm in such a better place to appreciate it completely. I have my days where it still gets a little foggy but I think this time when I see my city again, it's gonna be through a completely new lens. I'm stoked.

Until next time, lovers.

xx
Gina